The Ultimatum 

As I walked out of the BART tunnel off the stairs and into the salty air, cool breeze, buildings to the heavens skylines city I felt at peace. Lately I’ve been working on getting out and just experiencing life. I have always had an irrational fear of public transportation for many reasons. I feared all the germs covering every surface of the transit, the odd, unexpected things the passengers might do or say, and if something terrible might happen along the way. But today I tried to put all that behind me and enjoy my ride. 

Every time I get out of town to a place I consider my zen place I’m always flooded by a million thoughts. Me, my fiance, and our friend were the ones Embarking on this adventure. Recently I was told if I continued a friendship with our friend or his mother that another person would no longer have a friendship with me. I hadn’t really allowed myself to dwell on it until I hit the city. Like i said It’s always when I go to find peace that my mind starts twirling and analyzing past events. Never when I sit down to really think about them. As much as I tried to block that negative conversation out of my mind I wasn’t able too.

As I’ve stated in previous blogs, I am a people pleaser. A “Yes Man” in every true meaning of the word. When someone is upset with me I analyze everything I’ve ever done to them, every conversation, every interaction to figure out what I’ve done wrong. But in this situation I just couldn’t understand what I could have possibly done. Our relationship had been rocky for awhile due to certain events that had transpired. So the conversation that occurred left me extremely confused. As an adult I would never tell another adult that in order for them to remain in my life they would have to give up someone who meant the absolute world to them. It’s cruel. I would maybe ask them to not mention them around me or bring them around me if they brought me absolute grief and despair, but never give them an ultimatum.

Have you ever been in this type of situation? Did it make you consider actually picking a side? For nights I felt torn between people and families. I couldn’t bring myself to let them go. I sat down with a friend and they explained it in perfect sense. “Never hold onto someone who puts you in that situation. If they truly wanted you in their life they would never make you pick. Those words would never leave their mouth.”

As most of you know I went through a really dark time. I lost something very precious to me. The people I was told to throw away were there for me through it all. They’ve always been a shoulder I can cry on. They’ve never used my hurt against me to make me experience even more pain. For that I’m thankful I decided to keep them in my life.

In life you are going to have people who will use you, try to knock you down, and make you feel lower then you’ve ever felt. You will have people who are selfish and will ask unreasonable things from you. It’s how you respond to it that truly matters. Do not let them change you or make them reevaluate who you are. You are a divine being. Let them go. 

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Road To Veganism

Mangos, cucumbers, bananas! That’s all I craved during my pregnancy. For those short months I couldn’t stomach any meat or animal products. The smell was torturous! After my pregnancy had ended I attempted to introduce meat back into my diet. I enjoyed it, but the taste wasn’t the same as before. I began doing some reading and watching some documentaries. In my reading I saw that a lot of women who had lost a baby had a change in their taste buds. Some able to enjoy foods they never had before. My countless hours of reading and educating myself lead me down a rabbit whole of vegan videos and blogs. I knew that this was the life for me!

When I was younger I would gag on steak and pork chops. I loved my fruits and vegetables. I wasn’t a normal child. We had a tradition at my grandparents’ house, at night we would have “snack”. It was basically a late night desert before bed. I would always attempt to eat the same thing as my cousin, a banana split. It wasn’t until my Nana saw me only eating the banana that she started just handing me one for snack with a grin. How strange I thought to myself….how strange must she think I am for not wanting ice cream, for choosing a banana over that. I did enjoy my chicken and fish as a child and young adult. It wasn’t until I started dating my first serious boyfriend and going to dinner at his house did I start to eat meat on daily basis. I felt as if I was offending his family  by refusing the meals they had prepared for me. My body began to change from all the meat intake along with my appearance. I felt tired, my mood had decreased, and I gained weight.

I’m happy to announce I have been vegan for over a month now with no mess ups. It was easier for me then I think it would be for a normal person. I wear my emotions on my sleeve so watching videos like Earthlings and Cowspiracy really put the nail in the coffin for me. I have found amazing recipes from watching Hot For Food, Lauren Toyota, and the Edgy Veg on YouTube. I don’t ever feel like I’m missing out on something.

I have noticed some great changes since becoming vegan. I have lost weight, I feel more energized, and my skin is glowing. I had been having some serious acne problems and since this lifestyle change I am noticing a huge improvement with my complexion. Also my hair is growing at a better rate. It feels stronger. I stopped taking my depression medication, I’m not recommending anyone do this without seeking a medical opinion. I have been much happier and on the days that I’m feeling weak I have developed a nice self-care routine. I haven’t had any negative compliments about this change yet.

This is just another step forward in my spiritual journey.  I love animals, the planet, and have always wanted to make a difference. It’s nice to know that by doing this I am impacting the world in a positive way. I have inspired my boyfriend to not eat meat anymore as well, even though he does enjoy his liquid cheese. He has transitioned into being a vegetarian. I’m hoping by the end of the year I can convince him to be purely plant based.

Some tips I would recommend if you decide to try a vegan or plant based diet go as follows:

1)      Start slow! Don’t just jump into in. Do some research! I slowly decreased my meat and animal product intake.

2)      Decide why! I decided I was tired of talking about how I wanted to change the world and decided to do it! On days that I feel like a mcdouble I watch a little segment of Earthlings, The way they treat the animals helps me stay grounded in this  life style change.

3)      Find what you like! I started watching videos and creating stuff in the kitchen The first couple weeks I spent a lot of money just trying to figure out what  liked and what I didn’t. I stopped being afraid of making a food item I might not like. I just started experimenting.

4)      Bargain shop! A lot of the fruits and vegetables I eat come from my friends and families gardens. It’s always nice to get something home grown and free before going grocery shopping and forking out money for something. Craigslist has a plethora of farmers just waiting for someone to volunteer to come pick their fruit for them. I found a local man who allows people to come pick his plums for free. Also just making a quick post on craigslist ii got some fruits and veggies.

5)      Freeze! If store is having a sale on something stock up on it! Freeze it and you can use it for smoothies or juices later.

6)      Don’t take on the world! Right now I am just focusing on the foods and condiments I intake. Later, after a year I will start paying closer attention to the clothes, cleaning products, and beauty products I use as well.

7)      Don’t be afraid to tell your friends and family. It’s helpful that they know that way during family events they consider you when preparing the meals. Maybe they will buy earth balance butter and almond milk and use that for the mashed potatoes instead of the animal based products.

8)      Prepare! When I know there is an event coming up I make sure to find some recipes similar to the ones that might be consumed at the event so I don’t feel so different. I make sure to bring my own food so I am set up for success.

9)      Invest in a high speed blender and a nut bag! I got a ninja blender for 200 dollars and a couple nut bags on amazing for 13 dollars. Every morning I blend my fruits and veggies and strain them in the bag. Perfect juice without having to hassle with a juicer! Also blenders are good of vegan cheese and sauces.

10)  Have fun with it! Experiment, research, and don’t take yourself so seriously. I don’t judge others on the food they have on their plates, I just focus on myself. You aren’t better than anyone just because of the foods you are now deciding to eat.

 

I’m hoping that sometime in July I will start vlogging, maybe doing recipe videos as well. I would love to really give you guys a in depth look into this crazy journey I’ve been on. This spiritual quest has had so many ups and downs, but that’s life isn’t it. Things don’t work out as perfect as you envision them, and if they did how dull and boring would that be. I am grateful for every experience I have had to endure, because without it I wouldn’t be me.

Do No Harm

Covering my head with the small plastic bag filled with the coffee cup I had just purchased I made my way to my car. I noticed an older looking gentleman with coke-bottle thick glasses looking in the direction of my vehicle. He had a smile on his face and his arms were crossed as he was leaning back on one leg. He looked pleased with something. As I got closer to approaching my vehicle the man stopped me. “Do no harm,” he said with a twinkle in his eye as he pointed at the crooked bumper sticker on the back of my car. He began to engage in a conversation with me about peace and wars. We talked for a couple minutes about my spiritual journey, but it seemed like a lifetime to me. It was like we were old friends catching up. He told me he would follow my blog and made his way to his car. With all the turmoil and commotion going on that day all it took was  this perceptive nice gentleman to comment on something so simple to brighten up my day. It was strange. The rain stopped as i drove away and i felt at ease. If we could all just take the time time to apply those words to our lives things would be blissful. something so simple as “Do No Harm”

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We are approaching 2016! I would like you guys to join in on my wellness journey. Its going to be full of inspirational emails every Monday to get you through the week, positive challenges, meditation goals,and just helping us become the best possible us we can be in 2016. Feel free to email me at theurbanhippiemac@gmail.com to join. Tell your friends and have them email me as well. I look forward to hearing from you. Lets inspire one another.

 

 

25 things I learned before I turned 26

Inspired by Melissa Soule http://www.CandidlyMelissa.com

25. People may not understand the reasons you do the things you do, but people who truly care about you will support you.

24. Change is inevitable. You have to learn to roll with the punches. Sometimes the change turns out to be amazing.

23. One day someone who has loved you for as long as you can remember can suddenly have a change of heart, so instead of being fearful of that, make the time you have and share with them magical. The memories will get you through.
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22. Friends will come and go. Different circumstances in life will lead you down different paths. Try to be understanding of that. Its not personal, life just happens.

21. Break ups happen and they suck. Lean on friends that are empathetic. EMPATHY will get you through.

20. These are some of the best years of your life.  Cherish them hold onto the good, let go of the bad.

19. Don’t rush into college. Take your general education and really think about what you want to do.

18. Living on your own is hard. The struggle will mold you into strong, independent person.

17. Death is one of the hardest things you will ever encounter. Hold tight to tge people you love because you never know when you might lose them.
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16. High school isn’t really preparing you for the real world. Go shopping with your parents, watch them do their taxes, prepare yourself.

15. Be kind. You never know what someone is going through. Just a simple smile can make someones day.

14. Don’t compare yourself to the friends around you. You all come from different walks of life. They might have what you don’t but you don’t know how they got it.

13. Learn to enjoy your alone time. You need it.

12. Don’t believe everything you read or see on the internet. People let you see what they want you to see.

11. Think before you speak. You never know how the things you say can impact another person.

10. Racism isn’t something you’re born with. Its taught. You might start to lose some friends as you get older due to different ideas of what is okay to say to one another.

9. As much as you don’t like working, its something you have to do. Find a job you enjoy and work it well.

8. Learn to love Mondays, they really aren’t that bad.

7. Develop your own form of a self care routine. You might not think you need it, but you do.

6. You deserve more than what he’s giving you. Abuse isn’t something that should be acceptable. Sometimes sorry isnt going to fix it and “I love you” can’t be enough.

5. Having depression and anxiety doesn’t make you weird. You are not alone. Talk about it. Others can help.

4. You won’t always do the right thing, but its how you learn from it that matters. Don’t beat yourself up over thibgs that happened years ago.

3. Forgiveness isn’t something that makes you weak. It makes you stronger than imaginable. Its a weight lifted from your shoulders.

2. Your parents don’t always understand that they are the ones that are supposed to mold you into the person you are supposed to be. Your parents aren’t always right.

1. Cousins will be more like brothers and sisters. They will be some of the best friends you’ll ever have.
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My intentions……let them manifest into something magnificent

Intentions

  • I intend that Brandon and I are in agreement on whether to have children and how many children to have.
  • I intend to rebuild and strengthen my relationship with my family. I intend to be forgiving to all and release any grudges I hold on to.
  • I intend to be offered a job with June Bugs bar (or another company even better than that) for great pay and wonderful benefits as soon as possible.
  • I intend that my loving partner Brandon and I enjoy spending time with each other’s family and friends-adding to each other’s joy and fulfillment in life; and that we share similar concepts about being in and responding to these relationships.
  • I intend to create a deeply loving relationship with Brandon. I intend that this relationship will bring us love, fun, safety, security, laughter, freedom, trust, respect, intimacy and joy.
  • I intend that Brandon and I share compatible ideas of lifestyle, including how we keep and decorate a home, divide chores and spend our free time.
  • I intend that Brandon is as committed to creating a caring, loving, and growing partnership as I am.
  • I intend to create this loving relationship in a physical area I love that is easy, fun, healthy, and joyful for me to reside in.
  • I intend to buy a home in Seattle (or a home in a place more wonderful than that) for a great price with terms that I love, in perfect timing.
  • I intend to find a way out of my current financial situation, for it to be lifted from me in ease and in a way that is not stressful. I intend for it to improve with harm to none.
  • I intend to find a career that is enjoyable and exciting. That it fits my temperament, gifts, talents and skills, and that it pays well and manifests in perfect timing with harm to none.
  • I intend to keep my body weight at the range of 150-180 lbs with ease and elegance.
  • I intend to be drawn to and crave the movement, food and body/energetic work that my body needs to stay in perfect shape. I intend to this will have the greatest positive impact on my physical, energetic, spiritual, and mental intentions.
  • I intend to form a deeper and stronger bond on all levels with my unseen’s friends who support me in this lifetime.
  • I intend to deepen and strengthen my loving relationship with God and Goddess.
  • I intend that my home is a loving and transformative place for us and the people in our lives to grow love and heal.
  • I intend to be courage’s adventurer and risk taker-secure and confident about whom I am.
  • I intend to feel that I am always in the right place at the right time for all of my intentions to come true.
  • I request and intend to receive help from all of my unseen friends to manifest all of my intentions even greater than stated, with harm to none.

Read intentions twice daily. Read them once in the morning and once before bed.

Focus energy on them. Live life as if they are already happening.

 

Read these before bed:

“Higher self please help me to see and own more of who I really am. Helping me to remove whatever may be in the way of recognizing my divinity and the power and ability I have to create my reality. Please show me and guide me in gentle, loving, and easy ways, with harm to none. Thank you, higher self.”

“Higher self I would like you to join me in this blending. Make your presence and your love know to me. I seek to have a greater knowing of who I really am, and to open my divinity and my God-given ability to create my reality. Please help me with these intentions with gentleness, love, joy, grace and harm to none.”
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These are my current intentions listed in matter of importance. I thought that showing you guys might give you some help on how to write your own intentions. Good luck and happy manifesting. If you have any questions feel free to message.