Shuffling around my tornado whirl wind destruction of a house squeezing past multiple vacuums and lonely shoes I decided I needed to purge! In the last I blog I mentioned how sometimes you feel the need to buy things to impress the people around you, well I am guilty of that a million times over.
I have a three bedroom house with every room furnished to the max. I spent the past five years rebuilding my shattered life from a previous breakup. I lost a lot along the way and I felt the need to fill the void with “things”; Vases, wall art, candles, clothes, shoes, and more than enough coffee tables. I like how buying stuff makes me feel. Its my stuff, nobody can take it away from me. When I get paid I go and buy more things. Sometimes they serve a purpose, other times they just sit on the top, out of reach shelf of my closet.
In August I got hurt at work and have been taken off ever since. These past months I’ve watched my beautiful home turn into a place I dread waking up to. The piles of laundry I cant lift or fold has taken over my laundry room. ” I despise these things,” I say to myself. My hand injury has left me wanting a empty home that I can actually maintain.
One of my friends had posted a picture on instagram a bit ago about purging 80% of her belongings. I began doing some reading. Minimalism to me Is about not having so many things that you are emotionally attached to. Giving items that emotional connection gives them power over you . They control you. I’ve been playing around with the idea of moving to Seattle, but cant fathom the idea of transporting all of my belongings. I started feeling like my dream is out of reach because of all my worldly belongings. My items hold me back from so much. I have anxiety when It comes to allowing my friends over because my home isn’t as organized as I would like. I have started to feel overwhelmed with all the things I own.
I decided to look more into becoming a minimalist. thinking maybe this is just another part of my spiritual journey. I’ve watched video after video, pulling tips and advice from each one. I’m going to start this process by going from room to room with three boxes, each box for a different category. I will either trash, keep, or donate my items. Some minimalist put a set number to the amount of things they can posses, but this is to intense for myself. I will merely just try to remove the clutter that clouds my life. I have clothes that I haven’t worn for years…my prom dress from high school, a old sweater from when I was 5. I found a pin awhile ago about turning your hangers the reverse way and getting rid of the items that don’t leave the hanger or that don’t get turned the right way. I’m going to do this . Something else I saw that I liked was donation Sundays, every Sunday a man on one of the videos I watched takes five of his items to the Goodwill. I plan on doing the same.
I really adore the idea of being a minimalist. The idea of being more organized really excites me.
At the end of every month I want to give a update on how everything is going with my journey. I want to elaborate on how my vision board is working, how my manifestations are working, the meditation, how I’m doing with deactivating my Facebook, and now my minimalistic life style. I want to let you guys know how I’m feeling. I would like to inspire you to embark on a spiritual journey of your own. It is the best decision I’ve ever made for myself. I feel free again.